I was asked by the hello lovely project, an initiative to encourage women to voice things they love about themselves, to share one thing I love about myself. So here it is 🙂
I have been told so many times that I am “so emotional.” I remember I even worked in an office where the manager told me, “oh you’re one of those girls who are emotional and need reassurance” when I asked how I was doing in the role. ?? He made me feel embarrassed to be considered emotional.
Being emotional was an insult. But then I thought what is emotional? Everyone feels emotions. Everyone feels angry and sad, happy and calm. Overwhelmed and anxious. All of these are human emotions. Yet, sometimes when we show them it becomes a negative. Especially when you show sadness, or anxiety… you’re labelled negatively as an emotional person. You’re treated badly for feeling, so you shut off. You don’t show emotions, because you don’t want to be judged and you don’t want to seem vulnerable or weak…because vulnerable, like emotional is bad. Crazy right?? Fucking crazy.
I took a long scenic drive yesterday, the air smelled beautiful, it was fresh. The sun was shining and in that moment I felt free. Emotions overwhelmed me and I teared up from happiness. I felt strong, and vibrant and bold. I didn’t feel ashamed of my emotions. I felt them as they came. I let them all hit me, and it made me feel strong. I didn’t stop myself from having tears, and I didn’t force myself not to be emotional. What the f for? I was present in that moment and I allowed myself to feel.
I am often emotional. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am happy to show emotions, because emotions make up who I am. The good, the bad, and the vulnerable. And if showing emotions makes me vulnerable, so what?? No one can take advantage of my vulnerability… sure they can try, and if they do, it’s on them, it’s a reflection of them, not me.
I like that I am emotional, because I feel. I feel every moment. I will never apologise for being emotional. My heart is big, and I’m proud to show it, the good, the bad and the ugly. People say emotional people are weak, but it takes a real strength to be who you are, especially in a world that tries to put you in a box. So let those emotions fly free. ??