My Husband, I’ll C U Next Tuesday

I am one of those people who gush about how perfect their husband is. How he is a great dad… And all those mushy feelings *gag* But don’t be fooled. Sometimes my husband is a toddler. Sometimes he drives me crazy and I want to put a fork in his eye. SOMETIMES – babe if … [Read more…]

Catastrophising mumma

Sometimes after a feed, I lie in bed at night, around 4am and thoughts start to trickle through my head. I cannot exactly control them, even though I try not to think about it. I call them my little gifts from anxiety, keeping me in check to make sure I am still on my toes. … [Read more…]

Formula has kept me breastfeeding 

Fed is best. I know that saying makes a few people angry and their eyes twitch, but it is. Now I’m not saying to feed your baby condensed milk or bread dipped in water, but sometimes when I tell people that I mix feed occasionally, that’s how they’ll look at me. Not all. Some people … [Read more…]

Good enough 

When I was a kid, I never had any “real” friends. I changed schools three times and just adapted to making friends randomly. I liked everyone, the nerds, the cool people, the stinky people (I think I was one of them), and the sports fanatics. I never fit into any category completely, besides stinking it … [Read more…]

Self care 

Sometimes I get asked why I always write about Luca and not always Sofia. Usually I say, well Sofia is a good sleeper, nothing to report. And she is.. But lately she’s been doing this thing where she wakes every two hours, some type of sleep regression, maybe the room is too hot, I don’t … [Read more…]

4am rant 

I love my children. I would give my heart to them to make sure theirs beat forever. There is no doubt about it.  But sometimes I want the permission to just sigh heavily and say, fuck this. Let’s look at like this, it’s 4:00am and I’m writing this. Having been up for two hours trying … [Read more…]

Medication made me a better mum

Medication has made me a better mother. I’m no longer ashamed to say that. Getting help made me stronger and not feeling like I wanted to jump off a cliff.  Please don’t read any further if you’re overly sensitive or judgemental, because you won’t like what I have to say.  The hardest thing about writing … [Read more…]

Tales of batshit crazy in laws…

I have a really lovely mother in law. She is lovely. She cries when I cry and laughs when I laugh. I’m lucky.  However before my husband I dated a guy whose mother I could liken to the mother on the show, bates motel. She would wear my clothes, lay in the middle of my … [Read more…]

My birth story – Sofia’s arrival 

My birth post with Luca (read it here https://www.littlebooteek.com.au/article/birth-story-lucas-arrival) has recently been shared and received some attention. Turns out there are so many stories like mine that have ended in trauma and heartbreak. It saddens me that this has happened, as I truly believe that this can be one of the hardest things to overcome as … [Read more…]

To my son. 

To my beautiful son, Yesterday I watched you play around with your daddy’s shoes. One day your feet will fit into them. That thought alone terrifies me and fills me with joy. It fills me with joy because I know you and I have a lifetime of adventure together. You’re only learning to talk now … [Read more…]