Love makes you fat 

No, this isn’t a before and after shot of weightloss. But it is a victory story.  I write this from my heart. It hurts.  On the left – This was my body before kids. No stretch marks or scars from belly button piercings. A belly button that was high. A flat stomach. I was always … [Read more…]

Babies & Toddlers 

For the future mum’s of a baby and a toddler.  I applaud you.  You are about to welcome into your life two tiny lives at two different milestones. Two tiny lives at different stages of their lives. Each demanding and exciting and hard all at once.  You’ll soon know what it’s like to feed your … [Read more…]

Love me, even when I am unloveable 

Today I learned there are 450 million people in the world like me. 350 million people who have felt depression, anxiety, who are schizophrenic, bipolar.  I know it’s easy to pretend it doesn’t exist or talk about our feelings. Easy to sweep it under the rug and pretend it doesn’t exist. But it does. There are … [Read more…]

Baby comparisons 

When I was pregnant with Luca, I had a mummy friend in my pregnancy. We met on a pregnancy  site and group. We were just a week apart and lived around the corner from each other. We kinda clicked and became friends.  In her words, her pregnancy wasn’t that great. There were issues throughout which … [Read more…]

No wonder why we are depressed. 

It’s a funny little thing, Postnatal Depression. It’s funny because if you aren’t in a state of awe of this new life and opportunity that has been thrusted upon you, you aren’t coping. Because I mean what isn’t there to be happy about? Like when you’re stuck in the newborn phase of feeling you’ve been … [Read more…]

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I owe a lot to these little pills.  On a night where I’m left alone with two kids, I don’t feel doomed. I feel calm and nonchalant.  When I didn’t have these little pills, my heart would beat out of my chest. My palms would be sweaty. I would feel angry, anxious and frustrated.  When … [Read more…]

Fuck you PMS 

When God created the human body, it’s hard to think that he wasn’t feeling a little cruel towards the female form.  “Every month you shall bleed! Your body will cramp dull aches. You shall feel an abundance of emotions; anger, sadness, hangry, hungry, irritated, all into one” But you know what happens if you don’t … [Read more…]

For better, not for worse. 

When I was a month pregnant, Dom proposed to me. It was how we planned it. Get pregnant and get hitched.  I told him that I still wanted him to propose to me, keep it romantic.  I was working at a place where I felt bullied because I was pregnant, and in return argued with … [Read more…]

Don’t quit 

If my children could write a blog, it would be titled “my mummy is sometimes a sad mummy” Some days I feel useless, sad, overwhelmed, burned out, bored… Guilty.  The sun starts to shine and I’m reminded at how isolating it can be to be a stay at home mum.  But a little voice says … [Read more…]

Message from the spirits to George. 

I’ve been to three psychics in my life. Two of them were amazing. One in particular is my favourite and I always leave on a high after seeing here. I always talk about her, but today id like to talk about the third one. The not so psychic-psychic. Some people are sceptical and let me … [Read more…]