Accident but not a Mistake

I remember once I just said “Yeah it was unplanned”, and was shot with such a negative look. “Well make sure you don’t tell the baby that…” “What a horrible thing to say”

How to Sleep Train your Dragon… I mean Baby

Oh yes ladies and gentlemen… I went there. I said the two most dirtiest words in parenting history. Sleep Train. Makes me shudder. I am going to share the tips with you that I have learned thanks to my tiny terrorists and their sleep deprivation techniques.  That have worked for months, but stopped when the … [Read more…]

How to ask for help when your cup is empty. 

I asked my husband today, when was the moment he realised I had postnatal depression and anxiety, he responded with  “I think I started to realise when I saw your enhanced maternal child Health nurse starting to come around more often (my beautiful angel ‘Pollie’),  but it really sunk in when I saw you go … [Read more…]

3 hours of fun with my toddler 

Today I took Luca to the doctors. He has been coughing for about a month. He’s been in good spirits but a month is a long time for a cough. I know I’ll be greeted as a hypochondriac but better safe than sorry.  My husband suggested for us to go  to the doctors and then … [Read more…]

Don’t worry, be happy 

After being depressed for so long, and finally admitting it, (more like exploding it out of my mouth), I found myself wondering why I couldn’t be happy.  My friend asked me “why are you unhappy? you have two beautiful kids, and a loving husband”. I do. I should be thankful for it all.  I couldn’t … [Read more…]

Yes…You can still have PND and love your children. 

I used to be greeted with  frowns and “oh” when I would tell people I have postnatal depression, I knew what they were thinking…and some of them would actually say it.. “Did you hurt your children?” Actually no. I didn’t. I don’t. My parenting style is gentle and I don’t even smack my kids. In … [Read more…]

Love ❤️

I wrote a blog earlier in a week about husbands being c*nts  (Don’t know why I censored it). My husband got a bit mad at me… Okay he got a lot mad, and I guess rightfully so.  Although for me it was tongue in cheek and my friend and I were just having a little … [Read more…]

After everything I’ve been through, I deserve it and so do you.

I have struggled. Lord knows I have struggled because I have written about it in nearly every blog. I have struggled much like others but I don’t want to struggle anymore. I have forgotten so many times to enjoy these moments. To take it all in. At this moment, that is all I wanted to do, I wanted to hug my little girl. I hugged her and I cried.

My Husband, I’ll C U Next Tuesday

I am one of those people who gush about how perfect their husband is. How he is a great dad… And all those mushy feelings *gag* But don’t be fooled. Sometimes my husband is a toddler. Sometimes he drives me crazy and I want to put a fork in his eye. SOMETIMES – babe if … [Read more…]

Catastrophising mumma

Sometimes after a feed, I lie in bed at night, around 4am and thoughts start to trickle through my head. I cannot exactly control them, even though I try not to think about it. I call them my little gifts from anxiety, keeping me in check to make sure I am still on my toes. … [Read more…]