Love me, even when I am unloveable 

Today I learned there are 450 million people in the world like me. 350 million people who have felt depression, anxiety, who are schizophrenic, bipolar.  I know it’s easy to pretend it doesn’t exist or talk about our feelings. Easy to sweep it under the rug and pretend it doesn’t exist. But it does. There are … [Read more…]

Baby comparisons 

When I was pregnant with Luca, I had a mummy friend in my pregnancy. We met on a pregnancy  site and group. We were just a week apart and lived around the corner from each other. We kinda clicked and became friends.  In her words, her pregnancy wasn’t that great. There were issues throughout which … [Read more…]

No wonder why we are depressed. 

It’s a funny little thing, Postnatal Depression. It’s funny because if you aren’t in a state of awe of this new life and opportunity that has been thrusted upon you, you aren’t coping. Because I mean what isn’t there to be happy about? Like when you’re stuck in the newborn phase of feeling you’ve been … [Read more…]

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I owe a lot to these little pills.  On a night where I’m left alone with two kids, I don’t feel doomed. I feel calm and nonchalant.  When I didn’t have these little pills, my heart would beat out of my chest. My palms would be sweaty. I would feel angry, anxious and frustrated.  When … [Read more…]

Fuck you PMS 

When God created the human body, it’s hard to think that he wasn’t feeling a little cruel towards the female form.  “Every month you shall bleed! Your body will cramp dull aches. You shall feel an abundance of emotions; anger, sadness, hangry, hungry, irritated, all into one” But you know what happens if you don’t … [Read more…]

For better, not for worse. 

When I was a month pregnant, Dom proposed to me. It was how we planned it. Get pregnant and get hitched.  I told him that I still wanted him to propose to me, keep it romantic.  I was working at a place where I felt bullied because I was pregnant, and in return argued with … [Read more…]

Don’t quit 

If my children could write a blog, it would be titled “my mummy is sometimes a sad mummy” Some days I feel useless, sad, overwhelmed, burned out, bored… Guilty.  The sun starts to shine and I’m reminded at how isolating it can be to be a stay at home mum.  But a little voice says … [Read more…]

Message from the spirits to George. 

I’ve been to three psychics in my life. Two of them were amazing. One in particular is my favourite and I always leave on a high after seeing here. I always talk about her, but today id like to talk about the third one. The not so psychic-psychic. Some people are sceptical and let me … [Read more…]

Love and marriage… 

All is fair in love and war. Until you get married.  That’s how I felt, anyway, around a year ago being pregnant with Sofia. I was doing a placement for uni and in my spare moments cleaning and cooking and doing homework. I was run off my feet and exhausted. I had no time for … [Read more…]

How I met your father. 

In 2009 I met Domenic. He was standing with my brother in law; Christian, while I was strutting my stuff at the races. They were drinking beers and laughing. I came over to say hi and he and I engaged in small talk. I don’t remember what we said but I remember his nice teeth. … [Read more…]